Skinny phase...

• What's with skinny and the people nowadays? It's like, no matter where you are, if you see people, about 60% - 87% are skinny! TV, cinema or real life... SKINNY! What happened to make skinny be "in fashion" now? What happened to the time when Marilyn Monroe (aka curvy) is in?

• I mean, eating healthy and staying on average size is good, isn't it? What makes the people go overboard with their diet? Why wanna be skin and bone (and boobless and/or assless, may I add?) rather than flesh and bone (with your assets to be proud of)? Is it the person's fault? Or is it the world that's turning everyone anorexic?

• Diet pills, slimming products, slimming and shaping centres... all mushrooming and invading the market! With millions rushing out and willingly be swallowed up by the "thin fad". The shame. No one resolves in the healthy way of dieting or playing sports to sweat off the excess fat. Everyone's desperate to lose those kilos - FAST!

• I'm not one of those people, I'm proud to say. You people may think that I belong in the "non-skinny" group, or more direct, Im fat. But hell, I AM thin. I used to be one fat babe a few years ago. Hell, I turned from this skinny chic into a fucking Godzilla in months! Binge-ing, snacking, etc etc... And then I got much too fat to fit into my clothes. I wore Levi's size 29, for fuck's sake! Clothes of UK sizes, I had to wear M/8 for top and M/10 for bottom! [*insert space for you guys to imagine how fat ass I was 3 yrs ago*]. Then during summer break, I used up 2/3 of that time to lose those fats. How? Vigorous sessions of tennis, EVERY evening 5 PM - 7.30 PM OR 7.30 PM - 10.30 PM, if at my hometown (unless raining). Eat less. Result? I lost 8 kilos in 2 months. That's 4 kgs average per month! My Levi's dropped from the gruesome 29 waistline to a 26! UK size : S/M for top, 8/10 bottom (My bottom is big. Fuck you!). Yes, all my "fat" clothes CANNOT be worn anymore.

• Been staying around that weight for some years... did pack on a few pounds last year, but not to that extreme. Maybe 1-2 kilos. This year, however, I do not know why or how, but I lost another 3 kilos. If I recall correctly, I ate just as I have been doing after my 8 kilo weight loss. Nothing's changed. Haven't been playing tennis for a few months now, though, cos I sprained my left ankle, 3 times. I can now fit snugly into a Levi's size 25 (my Levi's 26 is too loose for me). UK sizes, I now wear XS (4)/S (6) for top and S/6 for bottom (yes, my butt actually inflated 2 sizes smaller in the 3 kilos weight loss). BIG achievement for me! But how it happened? I dunno... But what I can guarantee is I did not lose any, if not ALL, of those weight through any slimming aide whatsoever.

• Ok ok... you caught me... this entry has no purpose. I was just too fucking bored and felt like crapping something here... so I did. How many of you ACTUALLY finished this whole entry? I salute you man... *insert applause* Congrats... you actually learned what size of clothings I wear and how much kilos I lost though this entry. An easy way to get me clothings that fit me now eh? Go get 'em! I dun mind! =P

[ P.S. Dun mind the bullet points... just that I dunno why my paragraphing does not show in this entry and I hate it all sticking together, so the only way to not let it stick is to bullet point them. Bear with me ya? =)]

Yet another sad day...

Been back in KL since Monday night... and I haven been outta my room since then! Except to go to the loo, bathroom and the convenience store, which is btw, inside the hostel grounds to buy my lunch-cum-dinner. That is all... Oh, I did go to Suk Ching's apartment today for dinner and then played some PC games and chat... does that count as going out? Cos her place is also the hostel... blehness... I'm just crapping...

Just finished crying... AGAIN! Seriously, what's wrong with us that we cant even hold a proper conversation on the phone?! Face-to-face, we're fine. But on the phone, we're just like cats and dogs! Is it because he's too much of a MCP (Male Chauvinistic Pig) who won't listen to what I (a girl) says? Is it that I'm much too sensitive and take hold of the little details when he talks, a little too personally? Or is it that we miss each other too much that being far from each other just makes things hard? I've heard and known of many friends who are in the same situation as I am now... the bickering in phone, but lovey-dovey face-to-face. Is there any way to solve this issue?

We promised each other we'd change... in time... Can we do it? We have to... I'm getting sick and tired of shouting, misunderstandings, fightings and crying over trivial matters as such. I'm worried it will affect our relationship. That must not happen!

Aarghhh... I'm such a mess right now... My eyes have been swollen for a good 3 days now due to all those crying... Im pretty sure his eyes are swollen as well... sigh... What the hell happened to us? Why cant the "we", that's on the phone, be just as we are when we're next to each other? Civilised. Happy. Calm. No fights. Loving.

This sux. This is fucking serious shit. This reeks. Bleh!

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Things I need to do/change :

• Control my temper
• Be less sensitive towards small details
• Take things more lightly/Relax
• Sleep earlier
• Think less
• Cry less

Things he needs to do/change :

• Listen to me; and DO it
• Be less of an MCP & accept that this is a new era. Everything is NOT about the MALE species.
• Take things more lightly/Relax
• Procrastinate less
• Think more
• Cry less

That's all I can think off for now... will add if I think of any more... Bad bad mood... So depressing... so not at ease now... Feeling restless... so BLUE...

Happy Birthday Meg // Boring...

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY MARGIE!!!

Stay a hottie always ya? You know I love you darling... Safe trip down Kajang, dun party too hard like LAST SATURDAY @ KY's... *lol* and will call you when Im down in KL next week so we can meet up ya? Miss you loads...

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In 12 hrs time, I'll carrying a superbfuckingly heavy bag, taking the LRT and then Monorail to KL, Sg Wang area to wait for my sis to get off work and then we'd be hanging around there, have dinner before going to Pudu to wait for our bus back to hometown. Ride's at 8.30 PM and will reach destination zero at about 1130 PM. So so wanna see my babyboy straight after reaching hometown tomorrow... but I think that's impossible... so... sigh... I'd be so happy if I can go out with him everyday that I'm there... *keeps fingers crossed*

I hate travelling or walking all by myself... even if it's a short distance... it's sooooo boring, and lonely... As most people know, I'm a motormouth and cant shut my mouth, except when I sleep... so travelling and eating alone is a big NO NO for me! I feel Aso out of place, so pathetic, so... LAME! I dun wanna be a LAMERS! Blueksss... >_<

Anyhoo... I suspect my PC's invaded by many many spywares... and possibly virus also... hmm... wonder which website me/my roomie/housemates visited to make my PC "sick"... sigh... gotta reformat it ASAP cos I cannot go on with surfing the 'net halfway and then my pages either becomes "not responding", automatically shuts itself or with adverts keep popping up by itself over and over again... it's so fucking annoying AND I simply cannot do my work like that! *&^%$ fishbones + *&^%$@# more fishbones

Happy news on the other hand, I finally bought that cap! From the day I set my eyes on it (Tue night) in that shop in AC, I immediately fell in love with it and have been dreaming day and night about it. Finally, today's the official date for the opening of that shop and I WENT TO GET IT! Set it on reserve with Jason so no other people will steal it from me! Ye-ay! *Thanks Jason/Oliver/Kok Ann!* Will post a pic of it IF I can transfer it from my cammie phone to someone's laptop and then to my PC cos it doesn't have a fucking IR... =/ Oh well, the price to pay for choosing a PC over a laptop...

AGAIN... does ANYONE know how to transfer old blog entries over here to my blogspot??? My old blog allows us to make backup for all our entries... it's in a URL everything... so... ANYONE? Help? Pls? Damsel in distress? Pity the lamebrain here CAN?

Verdict // Help!

Ahh... mum called like around 8+ pm just now... woke me up from sleep... I got my answers :

• I cannot stay back in hometown for the week before I come back to KL... no, the parents want me to be back at HOME with them instead... sobsob... boring old place...
• Parents insist I do NOT work first, insist I stay at home for the time being and have my "rest"... probably in the hope of me changing my mind during that period... sigh sigh sigh... All I wanna do now is work and earn my own spending $$... and being able to give some to my parents, is the best thing ever... though it won't be much, but still... it's worth something, no? Besides, they aren't like depending on my income to go thru everyday... its just to show my filiality to them... but they dun wan me to work... so I guess my only choice now is rot at home... if it's in hometown, still okay... at least I have friends and relatives to go yamcha and talk to... at home, none of my friends are back! Sienz...

Anyways, does anyone knows how to transfer old blog entries from another blogging server to blogspot? Besides that, I wanna add a tagboard at the sidebar... Also, how come some of my links on the right are able to be clicked on, but some are not? So not fucking used to blogspot la... sigh... HELP!

Ahh. Finally.

Yesh... finally found a new home for meself. My own sanctuary. My own space again. (Dam lazy to explain again, so if you've read my last post in my "old" home, which I have no interest in naming, you'd know what Im talking about and why I chose to flee.

Anyhoo, enough talk cock about evil biatches that don't matter, ya? Let's blog.

Going back hometown on Friday... best part : No need to take the stinking bus! Cousin just called from the office and verdict is, her dad's gonna come down to pick us up! *do the Macarena to celebrate*

w00t~ Cousin's wedding is on Sunday and will be going back on Friday! I know it's not MY wedding, but I'm still excited! This will be the 2nd wedding of cousins (mum's side) that I'll be attending, so it's happy, happy, HAPPY! Now, finally, a reason to dress up, a reason to put on make up and nice accessories, a reason for everything! =P

Besides that, finally get to see babyboy again after so long. So many things had happened between us. Things that would break us, affect us - bad. But we're still together. That's gotta mean something! Though we cant see each other often, but in time, I know everything that fell out of place will stick back together again. Everything will be alright again. *Keeps fingers crossed*

Thought of staying back in hometown for another week or so (HOPE my parents allow me to) before coming down to meet up with my parents the next weekend and then pack up my stuff... I don't even know where to begin my packing up! Aarghhhh!!! Help! *runs around frantically* You'd think that in 21 years of my life so far, having moved to four (4) states and seven (7) houses would have given me the skills to pack things up to move, or at least where to begin, what to throw, etc... but NO, I learned NOTHING. Nil. Nada. *smacks own head* Think think think...

Sigh... where do I go work? I would want to either work in hometown or in KL... job opportunities and varieties would be more in KL. The pay is much better here than in small places like where Im from. AND most, if not all, of my friends are in KL anyways, so working here would be like killing two birds with one stone. BUT I also wanna work in hometown... cos babyboy is there, and having been so far apart from him and not being able to see each other as often as possible, has pretty much gotten to us. The number of times we both broke down and cried. The number of times we argued cos of the distance. The number of times for this, for that... I cannot remember.

Audz has asked me to find a job in KL, so we can still meet up... but I dunno... how bad can it be that you wanna work in two places cos the two best things in ur life are in two different places, states?

Working in KL :

• Friends are here, but babyboy is not
• Gotta find a place of convenience (to go to work & near friends & food) to stay, that is of reasonable price
• Higher wages
• Can go back on most weekends, so get to see babyboy at least on weekends. (is that enough?)

Working in hometown :

• Babyboy is there, friends are not
• No hassle of finding room to rent, place to eat, etc... but finding work here may be problem itself... where can I work?
• Lower income
• Get to see babyboy almost everyday throughout the week!

Sigh... I gues the choice is not really mine to make. Gotta discuss with my parents still and the final decision is still theirs. I guess Im still fine with them deciding either hometown or KL, but I really hope they do not decide on the place we're staying at now! Blueksss~! >_<

I DO have to start finding work ASAP if I wanna have enough savings for my 21st birthday celebration, which is at the end of July. I wanna make it big, big, BIG! Dilemma wei...