Fat fat fat

Im getting fatter and fatter...

I cannot seem to control my eating habits now...

I feel like a glutton cos I keep eating...

My pants are getting tighter...

My face is getting rounder...

I can feel my fats oozing from the sides and around my waist...

It's depressing for me to grow fat...

I am single and no one is interested in me...

I am just a fat, lonely and depressed person...

When will I ever find the love of my life & slimness I once had?

My Weekend...

Hi peeps, it's Monday again and it's back to the drawing board... sigh... Weekends are too short, I tell ya!

Friday after work, I headed straight for my gathering with our fellow ex-Monashians in Pyramid. Luckily I decided to drive to work on Friday (cos I figured I would reach Sunway quicker if I drove straight from KL after work, rather than take public transport back to PJ then go straight after getting my car. AND I WAS RIGHT!). Reached and parked my car in Pyramid by 7pm (appointment was @ 7.30pm). Our initial plan was to have dinner in Thai Thai (cos one of our friends wanted Thai food). But last minute, she bailed on us cos she wasn't in the mood to come after knocking her car into a motorbike around her office area in Puchong. And since one of our friends was vegetarian on Friday ("chor yat"), we had to go somewhere where she can order salad and what better place than western food restaurant. So... we chose Tony Roma's. There was only me, Yunn Horng, Shi Hui, Jon & Tzey Huey (Carolyn). It was a super filling and fun dinner. Was great catching up with old and close friends (we usually have our reunion dinner about once in a month or two, just to catch up with each other and keep in touch). Was particularly fun that night cos one of our ex-unimates (Carolyn) came down from Singapore to visit us. It's been years since we last met her! =) The dinner ended at 11pm and we headed back to our cars.

On Sat, I went to Malacca for a food & Jonker escapade with Dre & MG. Zoey was supposed to go along as well, but bailed last minute cos she came down with the fever (aww) so it was just us three.

I drove over to Carrefour, Subang to park my car (cos it's free!) and had to wait for Dre & MG for, like, 1 whole hour cos when I sms-ed to her at 9.30am, they JUST woke up. We were supposed to meet at 10am at Carrefour. So I stood there and waited and waited and... finally at almost 11am, they finally arrived. Anyhow, went for breakfast @ McD's then headed for Malacca...

First stop once we reached destination zero was... Chicken Rice Balls! Now, I do not know what's with all the hoo-hahs made by people towards those balls of rice, cos I personally prefer the normal rice to balled up once. We went to the famous shop on Jonker (the one that was recommended by the chinese Ah Xian fella in a makan show which I never watched before). Was tempted to order a normal plate of rice while both of them take the rice balls, but ended up not so as to not "potong stim" for both of them who seemed so hyped up about having the rice balls. Anyhow, it was a super filling meal!

Next off, we loitered around Jonker, going into souvenir shops to look see, into boutiques to try on clothes but never buy, etc... til MG complained that he was tired, so we went to this cafe-bistro place caled the Geographer where I had a drink called Mango Tango (fizzy mango juice with a few strands of mangoes), MG had a bottle and a draft Carlsberg and Dre had the organic coconut (I have NO idea what the difference between organic and non-organic. Heh). It was freakin hot there that we decided to go to a mall to loiter til Jonker Street (pasar malam) starts.

After loitering in the mall, we headed back for Jonker. We watched this "shi fu" who is always there to do a "show" and promote his massage oil. This time round, he poked his finger thru into a coconut! At one point his finger actually got sprained/broke and blood was pouring out, by which he poured the massage oil he was promoting onto his finger. Just to prove his point that his oil works, he showed the audiences his "normal" finger before poking it into the coconut, then his swollen finger after poking it into the coconut and then his not swollen (anymore) finger after using his "miracle" oil. At one point, this aunty standing next to me was telling all her friends how it really works wonders, cos her leg always "masuk angin" then she used it and instantly it doesn't hurt anymore! End up all her friends bought the oil, which was sold that night at RM10 (normal price RM18.90)! Wonder if she has "shares" or paid to promote it for the "shi fu". Hmmm....

Anyways, after that, we walked around the whole of Jonker street and by the time we left the place, it was already 11.30pm! Reached Subang at 1.30am and headed to Carrefour to get my car. That was when we discovered (horror of all horrors!) The whole of Carrefour was locked up! Even the parking space was locked! So I couldn't get my car out of there, nor can I go up to get my house keys! *faints*

So no choice, went to bunk with the couple in Holiday Villa (they rented a room there cos Dre's cousin was supposed to come down for holiday, but bailed last minute so the room was still there... thankfully!). We washed up, watched a little tv, read some newspaper & magazines... and at 4am, we were all too hungry to sleep! So we ordered room service (chicken sandwich). After chomping down the chicken sandwiches & potato wedges (I dunno if it's cos we were famished, but it was DELICIOUS!), we all slept like a log throughout the whole night... err, morning.

Next day, woke up at about noon, then me and Dre headed back to their place to do laundry and chit chat, then by 3+pm went back to the hotel to pick MG up and headed to Pyramid for super late lunch. Went to this Vietnamese restaurant (in old wing) and had our lunch at 4.30pm! LOL! The food there was not bad... quite expensive though... not suitable to makan everyday.

Then Dre and I went to loiter and window shop around while MG went to play shooting game (LOL). By 7.30pm, we went over to Carrefour to buy some stuff and then got my car. Then we went our separate ways.

Well, that was my weekend. Pretty eventful, especially the part where my car was locked in and I could not go back home cos my house keys were not with me, huh? LOL... =P

Weekend is here!!!

Hey hey hey

It's a Friday again! Aren't you glad the weekend is coming? This weekend is gonna be a pretty busy one for me, as opposed to the previous two weekends, in which I just hid out in my room and basically just ate, slept, onlined, read Chicken Soup, Youtube-d, Facebook-ed, watched TVB Series, etc. Sounds so "eventful", doesn't it?

Well, for starters, I'll be headed for Sunway Pyramid after work (in about 1 hour from now) to meet up with a bunch of friends as well as Tzey Huey, who is coming down from Singapore to meet us up. Hence, a MUFY-Monash reunion thingy is born... I should think there will be about 7 or 8 of us there. We'll be headed over to Thai Thai @ 7.30pm.
Gosh, I do hope I will be able to make it there on time, considering the Friday traffic (madness, I tell ya!).

I do hope I can eat tonight, considering I was supposed to "save my stomach" by eating a light lunch today (ie. the bread I bought) but ended up going out for lunch with my colleagues, cos we @ DBS are showing our support for Earth Hour by shutting off all our lights for 1 hour, from 12.30pm - 1.30pm. It was pitch-black in the office! So went out for lunch. Unfortunately, it was raining like mad outside, so the whole building was basically unable to leave the premises, so the crowd was divided to either eat at T-break, our cafe on Ground Floor, or the food court on 4th floor of our building. It was so packed we decided to go for Jap food (same building) on 2nd floor. Boy, did I ever regret, cos the blardy set cost me about RM30+ (and that was the cheapest!). The bill for 5 of us came up to almost RM200! Crap wei!!!
Food was okay, but I feel guilty now cos I was supposed to save up for tonight's splurge (on both my stomach AND purse) but ended up breaking both rules. Sigh...

Anyhoo, tomorrow, Dre, MG & I would be headed down to Malacca for a day-trip - purely eating, shopping and Jonker Street madness tomorrow. (Did I mention eating? There goes my diet plan...)
Since I dun really wanna be stuck alone with the lovebirds (if you know them, you wun wanna be stuck alone with them too considering how "romantic" they are ;P ), I have asked my ex-colleague, Zoey to go along on the trip. So we'll be finalising the plan tonight... Hopefully I can scout for some nice and cheap stuff over tomorrow! Wish me luck!

After all the outings and such these few days, I guess I should reserve Sunday for a little me-time at home. Should really let my stomach, feet & purse have a little rest before smoke starts coming out... =P

Well well... it's almost time for me to go-go... so Happy Weekend, peeps! And enjoy yourselves!

This is true love...

Received this in an e-mail today which I would like to share with you:-

This is true love...

The girl in the picture is Katie Kirkpatrick, she is 21 . Next to her, her fiancé, Nick, 23. The picture was taken shortly before their wedding ceremony, held on January 11, 2005 in the US . Katie has terminal cancer and spend hours a day receiving medication. In the picture, Nick is waiting for her on one of the many sessions of quimo to end.

In spite of all the pain, organ failures, and morphine shots, Katie is going along with her wedding and took care of every detail. The dress had to be adjusted a few times due to her constant weight loss



An unusual accessory at the party was the oxygen tube that Katie used throughout the ceremony and reception as well. The other couple in the picture are Nick's parents. Excited to see her son marrying his high school sweetheart.

Katie, in her wheelchair with the oxygen tube, listening to a song from her husband and friends.

At the reception, katie had to take a few rests.The pain do not let her to be standing up for long periods

Katie died five days after her wedding day. Watching a women so ill and weak getting married and with a smile on her face makes us think.....

Happiness is reachable, no matter how long it last.

We should stop making our lives complicated.

Life is short Break the rules forgive quickly kiss passionately, love truly laugh constantly

And never stop smiling no matter how strange life is

Life is not always the party we expected to be but as long as we are here,

we should smile and be grateful.

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Even if the story was not a true life encounter; perhaps it was something made up; the true message that is conveyed here is that there is still hope out there, that there's still someone right for everyone... we just need to be patient and never stop believing. Life is short; so we should appreciate what we got and enjoy it while it last. Live for the moment and never have any regrets cos we only live once. =)

Unlucky In Love...Definitely!

Well, it's official. He broke up with me last night. Said he couldn't take another failed long distance relationship (LDR). His previous two relationships were also LDR and they failed miserably, so he has no more confidence to do it again. Sigh...

Even when I told him I dun mind going down every twice a month just to see him. But he minds it. He minds that I have to spend so much money to go and see him and it will be tiring for me to keep on traveling up and down.

He is worried that he might not be able to meet up with my expectations, blablabla...

Sigh... Im just sooo unlucky with love. Is it Im not lovable? Am I unattractive? Am I such a horrible person that I don't deserve someone who loves me so much, wanna be with me, take care of me, treats me like a queen, who wants to spend the rest of "his" life with me... just like my friends Lian & Dre has found their great significant other??? Do I not deserve the best and be happy too? Sigh...

Where is my Mr Right? Where is my "the one"??? Im soooo tired of waiting and going through disappointments, one after another! I've already had 3 disappointments this year, and it's only March! THREE! Means on average, one disappointment per month! That has gotta be the most pathetic thing to happen to anyone!

I got so fed up that last night on MSN, I told Yoong that I dun wanna find a bf anymore. LOL! See? I was THAT fed up...

A friend told me that there is one person for everyone. And that person will make your heart melt and everything will feel right when you're with them; even at times when things are not ok. He will appear in your life one day and you will know.

I believe in that... so, where is this guy of mine??? Im waiting...

Unlucky in love...

Have you ever felt so lost? Helpless? I have.

Lung just told me that he has no doubts about us and this relationship. But then he also told me that he is worried that he has no time for me! What the hell does THAT mean? All I told him was, "Then you have to think how much you love me & want this relationship to work. Cos to me, nothing is impossible if you really want something." But that left me in a foul mood!

I know I did the right thing by saying that. Cos as much as I want the relationship to work out between us, the distance is somewhat a torture for us. I don't doubt his feelings for me. I know that he loves me. But I just don't know how MUCH he loves me... whether his love for me is enough for him to be willing to make sacrifices, go through the distance problem that is between us, and make time to come down to see me. I guess this uncertainty left me in my current mood.

But what can I do? Sure, I don't mind going down to be with him over the weekend. But I cannot be the only one making sacrifices and compromising in the whole relationship! There certainly has to be an compromises, give and take from BOTH parties! Isn't there?

With this new situation coming up, it has added a whole new lot of uncertainties into my life. Initially, I had some doubts about letting him stay over at my place whenever he comes down to see me. Why? Cos I'm actually renting a room from this couple who is a friend of my mom's friend. And anyhow, I don't really feel good to let a guy come over to stay, even if he is my boyfriend, when the situation is such that our relationship is not stable/certain yet. I mean, what IF *touch wood!* things din work out after just a few months/weeks (!!!), then down the road, I get another bf and brings him over. Even if we didn't do ANYTHING, what would they think of me? After that, I decided "fuck care! He's my bf!" And then... this fucking situation arose. Sigh...

Just got off the phone with him. I dunno wt else I can do. I dun mind going down to see him every fortnight if I have to. Given the circumstances and his current situation. I know, it will definitely be hectic and tiring for me. But what would you do if you were in my shoes? Would you rather not go down just cos it will be tiring? If your answer is yes, then get out of whatever relationship you're in now, cos it just shows that you dun love that poor poor fella at all! But he doesn't want me to suffer by keep on traveling down to see him. I really dun mind. My only wish is that we can be together and not have to break up cos of this. But I honestly dun wanna keep going to find him only to end up with him telling me he still wants to break up cos of the situation. That would be a total waste of my time & money.
I need his guarantee he wun break up with me cos of that reason then Im more than willing to go down every so often.

It's not easy to find someone whom you love and whom actually loves you back. It took him a long long time of thinking before he decided to confess his love to me. I dun hope for the situation to have to be 'just friends' after what we been through. He's my closest friend, he's my heart's desire. I cant tell this to anyone else... just here.

Sigh... fucked up... I think I have sucky luck in relationship.

Sing k // the BIG 'secret'

Hiya... Im back again! =)

Anyhoo, it's lunchtime now, so Im taking this opportunity off my busy busy work to "release stress" here...

Tomorrow is Friday (TGIF!) so that means another week has passed... What do you guys have planned for the weekend?

As for me, my company is gonna have one of our "famous" gatherings again... at non other than our favorite past time; KARAOKE-ING!!! Yup yup... I swear, I think all of us absofuckinlutely LURVE hearing our own voices! Almost all (okay, I confess... ALL) our gatherings consists of us going for the K-dinner at either Neway or Red Box! LOL... This time round, our K-dinner will be held at Red Box, The Gardens, from 7pm - 12am. Woot~ I predict this event is gonna be madness for us again, just as the farewell (part 2) for our beloved MD, Mr Lim was... FYI, the farewell (pt 2) was also a K-dinner @ Neway, Berjaya Times Square. (Farewell pt 1 was @ La Bodega, Pavilion, farewell pt 3 was lunch @ Overseas Restaurant)

For Sat & Sun, so far no plans yet... my "bro" Kev, will be heading to Kedah today til Sun for business, so that leaves me with no one to "bug" and hang out with... Not sure if Yoong wants to go out for yamcha or dinner or something together... if he does, then can round up Zoey and Lee Ling for that... wonder if Leeyin wants to join in. If she does, then we gotta make it an early thingy cos everyone's so sick of having to send her alllllll the way back to her place cos it's so frickin far away, can? And she doesn't feel the least bit 'malu' to have us send her back... like she feels it's our responsibility to do so! Fark man! Sigh... perhaps we'll just plan an outing without her... anyways, she doesn't speak Canto like the rest of us, so when she goes out with us and we speak in Canto, she ends up sitting there quietly cos she doesn't know how to speak it, and she doesn't seem to understand what we're talking about as well. Kind of a language barrier ain't it?

Dre is having cravings for chicken rice balls and Jonker food & shopping... so we MIGHT be planning a day trip down to Malacca for some lovely indulgence. Seriously, I think I need to lose weight cos I feel like I've been piling on some with my pigging out since CNY! *faints*

So, hopefully that plan will materialise... Im so stressed out that a mini holiday would be nice... =)

Our old friend Pei is gonna come back to Kmn for a while sometime in July, so Lian (and Andy, perhaps) and I will be headed down to Kmn to hang out with her during the weekend... dunno if we'll be taking leave to go down or just for the weekend, though... Lian suggested that we can bunk with Pei @ her home considering her parents wun be around for about 1 week, so we can keep her company... I was thinking more of staying over at Lung's place, considering we're... kinda together? Well, dun get too excited over it just yet cos it's kind of a "trial" period cos we got some issues that needs to be resolved first. That's why we're kinda keeping the relationship to ourselves for now, until we figure out if things can work out. What issues? Well, actually, I dun think it's issueSSS... more like one issue, which is kind of a big one; distance. I dun mind a little distance now and then, but it does create problems, doesn't it? And with that, comes monetary issues cos he's all the way in Kmn (which is about 4 hrs away) and we just calculated that the two-way trip would cost us MYR200/=, PER TRIP! Expensive like mad! If let's say we do 1 trip each per month, every fortnight, it would be 200 buckaroos per month just on traveling to be together for the measly 2-3 days (not incl. food & entertainment), is it worth it? The other alternative would be taking the bus, which of cos would be cheaper, but I kinda hate taking the bus cos Pudu is sooo outta the way so it's inconvenient... and then for me to travel to that ratchet, notorious bus station alone, is soooo unadvisable... that place is bad news, I tell ya! Sigh... See the issue we have? I dunno if it's right for us to be together, cos of this problem... and I guess he's thinking the same thing as well.

Previously when he confessed to me, I kinda freaked out cos we've been friends for so long (since I was 13 and him, 14... so it's 12 yrs up til now!), so can you blame me for being kind of skeptical and terrified? I was worried about our long standing friendship and would it be ruined IF things din work out... I mean, I have always had some feelings for him, since early days of knowing each other (he knew about it but kinda avoided me after finding out, that I had to get Lichin to bluff him that it's not true so he wun avoid me anymore, which he didn't after that.) but I din think there would be any chance that he'd like me. So I ended up being good friends with him, always helped him with his problems, always listening to him and sharing his news... I even stayed up with him all night (by the beach, mind you! Dun get any kinky thoughts!) to listen to the problems with his then-gf and giving opinions and helping him through it. Heck, Jenn, his American ex-gf, even called me and talked to me for few hours after he broke up with her! She was crying and talking at the same time, with her American accent, and I was having THE hardest time trying to understand her and consoling her... and you know the best part? She met Lichin and Lian, but never met me before. So I was kinda surprised that she'd come to me when she and Lung had problems! He said that all these things I did for him, always being there for him has made him see me in a special and different light... so in a way, being nice kinda paid off in the end, didn't it? =P

But of cos, let's not count the eggs before they hatched yet, cos we still got a problem to solve here. Somehow I kinda get the feeling if we cant come to a good solution, we might be gameover... I cant likely expect him to come down KL all the time and me not having to go down to meet him, cos there has to be compromise in a relationship, and besides, he has to run his family business and his own business down there... so it will be unfair to make him keep coming down. And in this recent time, definitely I will have to be the one to go down first, cos his mum just had a bad fall, so he has to be there to take care of her. Sigh...

Here's to Friendship

Back in business, baby!

Ooh... I just realised that my office FINALLY allows us to visit blogger.com!!!
Means (hopefully) that my blog will be up and running... AGAIN!!!

My last posting was like almost 2 yrs ago? Wow wow wow... Im soooo outdated... lol!

Anyhoo, that's all for now... it's time for me to go home!

I'll post something from home if there's anything worth posting... ;)

Toodles~