Tired CAN!!

Hey peeps...

Im back from my training and exam! Actually, today's training was cancelled and yesterday's was the most pathetic training ever! All they did was just lined us (those who actually bothered to turn up) and took some pictures and let us off... in less than 30mins! And with today's cancelled, I get to come back home and sleep in the comfort of my own room, my own bed... cos I dunno why, but I dun seem to ever been able to sleep in that room in Kuantan...

Everytime Im there, I cant seem to sleep... And then I'd wake up at like 8 - 9am... WITHOUT FAIL! I never even needed the alarm clock to wake me up, cos I always wake up waaaay earlier than the time set. Last night after getting off the phone, I went to lie down in bed at 2am, lights off (sis next to me, sleeping like a log already)... I COULDN'T sleep! My phone rang at almost 4am, but it din wake me... cos I was WIDE AWAKE! Talked a while and then tried to go back to sleep again. Ended up lying there staring at the ceiling til about 6am before I could actually sleep... and then I suddenly jerked awake at 8AM! And I din have to wake up til like 1030!

It's not just this once... it's everytime Im there... is this creepy or what? =S

Anyways, I'm gonna hafta drive back up tomorrow and stay there til either Wednesday or Thursday... cos we have this vigorous and final training before the actual day (Wed). So no point comin back after training on Monday and then drive back up on Tue again! Too much petrol money ka? LoL... So me and my friends gonna have lunch, hang out after training and go look around for gym centres so we can go...

Oo... went to watch Singapore's ghost movie, The Maid last night after training with my "brother" Tiger and Sheau Wei (Ah Tee). Was pretty ok le.. not very scary... but dam kesian wan... The dam funny part is, when people watch horror or anything, they would wince or scream or anything rite? Well, Tiger's is special... when it comes to the intense part of the horror, he will suck in his breath thru his mouth for as long as the scary part lasts. And if it's dam long, he'd pause for like 1 second and continue again! It was hilarious! The whole cinema was laughing cos it was loud enough for them to hear... LoL!

Anyways, nothing much to update for now... Pretty tired cos of lack of sleep... sigh...

P/S : I finally put up my tagboard on the right hand side (below the Cool Counter)... If you guys wanna like tag me or leave a msg or whatever, do feel free to do so k? Will reply back.. hehehe! =P

Why so boring???

Argh...

Gotta drive down to Kuantan tomorrow again... got Merdeka Parade training with my fellow coursemates of Olympia... FORCED by our principal btw... Totally 100% din join by choice! Blueksss!!!

And then on Sat, will be having Computer Application exam (yes, an exam on a fucking SATURDAY! Kill me can?) and then about an hour after that, it's training time again! Whoopee!!! *sarcastically + rolling of eyes pls*

Oh, and it's confirmed... my lecturer insists I wear the cheongsam and asks Azlyn (that's the lenglui Malay gal, I found out her name) to help find a nice one to rent.. and get this... me and her are gonna hafta wear HEELS and march around the fucking field! OMFG! I hope I dun trip and fall... And I already sprained my ankle like 3 times... I so CANNOT wear heels for too long... I wore them on Monday to go for my class (Mondays are the college's "dress up like an executive" day) and then after that went to Megamall for lunch and a short walk around wif my coursemates before driving back home again... and my leg almost gave way... It's still painful up to now... Sigh...

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Ooh... Thinking of joining the gym once my actual course starts, I get my timetable to plan and things are more settled... Will most probably be going with my "sai lou" Tiger, since he's the one who suggested it... And I HAVE been planning on getting myself toned up again, considering I had to stop tennis cos of my poor ankle... So Im guessing gym would be a pretty good choice, considering you dun need to find a sparring partner to do gym (a buddy there for motivation and boredom killing is good of cos)... Just hope I won't get all big and bulky like I did when I was still superbly active in tennis... I din lose all this weight and went to a smaller frame just to ruin it all again wei... Just wanna look more toned... not bigger! =S Sigh...

Argh... boring boring boring... Guess Im gonna go offline in a few.. nothing to do... Bah!!!

What the...

I dun get it. I just dun fucking get it! Why do guys have to get all bitchy and nasty and mean on the girl after he breaks up with them?

See, this friend of mine, she suffers a very very bad bad BAD depression. If I'm not mistaken, it's hereditary. It's so bad she self mutilates, attemps suicides and all that pretty often just to hurt herself. She actually love the pain and seeing the blood. Since its hereditary, it's pretty hard, if not impossible, to cure. She takes lotsa anti-depressants and all those shits doctors give her... etc...

This ex of hers, know her for years n have been going after her for like YEARS, so therefore means already knows how she's like - her depression, self-mutilation, suicide, her character, etc.. BUT, with knowing all those information, he still went after her for all those years.

And then, she finally accepted him. He even broke up with his then gf to be with her. Said there were no sparks with her and no love at all. My friend and that bastard were together for some months. Has their ups and downs like all relationships, of course... and then, in this few days, he broke off wif her AND got back wif his ex (now, din he say he din love her, no sparks and all that shit?). AND, she flew all the way over to where he is, spent the week with him and all... but he din even break up with her like a MAN, face-to-face! He waited til she was back on the plane back to her place and then a day or two later broke up with her, through the phone! What the fucking hell!

Not only that! After breaking up with her, he starts bitching on this blog that they share, about how he cannot cope with how she is, her depressions, her this and that... when he already actually knows how she is right from the beginning, YEARS before this, and we assume he has accepted ALL of it cos he still insisted on pursuing her for so many years, listening to her problems, helping her out... even before they got together!

And as if he hasn't hurt and tortured her enough... he even posted up tons of entries about mental illnes! Stuff like "Mental health: What's normal, what's not", "How signs, symptoms and function are interpreted" and "Mental health as an evolving continuum"! As if stating she's mentally disturbed and cuckoo! Fucker!

What the fuck man? U call yourself a MAN? For a guy of almost thirty, you would think he would have some MATURITY and BRAINS inside his teeny weeny head. Handle the situation sanely and LIKE A MAN la! What a loser... I have male friends who are tons younger than him that are more mature than that bird brained son of a bitch!

If you got nothing nice to say, don't fucking say anything! Just keep ur stinking pie hole shut! No one will say you're dumb!

What an asshole... I hope he rots in hell!

Hold on...

Now wait just a minute there...

I would just like to make some things clear... This is my blog. My sanctuary. A place where I can just blurt everything I feel, think, want, need and whatever shite out. My place of truth. It is also a place for my friends to get to know about me, what I do, how I feel and et cetera et cetera et cetera...

I dun think I am a bad person. I dun do drugs, I dun rob, I dun steal, I dun kill... I am just going through life as it is. I am not perfect. I am a normal human being. And I make mistakes. I feel things. I learn from my own mistakes, from mistakes my friends do. I have feelings. Yea, so I have more of a depression than others do. But so what? I still am me. You think I am not learning cos Im ranting here? That I am an unappreciative, spoilt little prissy ass bitch cos I just want my freedom, my own space, my own life, my own way to learn in life? Think again.

No two people are the same. Maybe some of you dun understand what I go through cos u have ur own freedom since u were young. For me, all my life so far is my parents telling me who I can be friends with. What I should eat. What sports I should play. What clothes I should wear. What I should study. Where I should study. For my life so far, I have been doing what my parents want. Is it wrong for me to want my OWN LIFE back? Is it wrong for me to wanna live n see the world for my own instead of being kept inside a cage and learn and see things through my parents' eyes? Is it wrong for me to actually have my own life? To have my freedom? Is it wrong to expand my views? What the hell is wrong with that? It's not like I'm DISOWNING them or saying I don't need them and their advice!! I still do ok? They are and always will be my parents, whom I love no matter how pissed and mad I am at them. I just wanna learn things my way, see things on my own... be independent!

Every family has their own quirks and deep dark secrets. Every family has their problems and fights and whatever shits. This is MY way of keeping my sanity. MY way of handling things.

Got that?

Bored...

Sigh...

It's so boring... Im so bored... what a boring place Im living in... A place where the town goes almost dead by 11pm... where you cant even mamak after 12am cos no place is open - AT ALL!

What to do? What to do? What to do? And my actual course is not opened yet, so Im here freaking bored outta my head... I really cannot wait for my graduation by end of next year... so I can find a job located in KL and be in the middle of all the actions again... like I used to be... [how many times have I actually talked about this? Too many I think... U guys are gonna kill me aren't you? =P]

But it's really true... This place is too dead to be true... And living with parents like mine? It dun matter how hip and happening this place is... you will forever have a curfew and a limitation of where you can go and what you can do... Just ask the 24 yr old gal who came from this very same family as me... I dun get why she gave up a job in KL to come back here! [I know la actually... beloved bf here ma] But giving up KL to come back to curfews and controlling parents? OMFG... Well, not quite la... since she usually dun listen to them and they dun freaking do anything about it... oh wait, they do... they PICK ON POOR ME instead! Me... the poor, defenseless one... who gets dragged in the middle of their warpath just cos their elder daughter don't listen to them... *rolls eyes*

Which makes me cant wait to escape this "prison" and have my own sanctuary, my own life, my own freedom... let them deal with her directly instead of diverting the torture unto the innocent victim who doesn't go out, stays home and does her homeworks...

O... The "VIP" has finally read the "crazy" thing I sent... but I gotta wait few more days cos "VIP" wanna think about it first before replying me and giving me the answer... Is this a good sign or a bad sign? Im soooo nervous... sooooo scared over what's it gonna be... I really hope it's the positive answer... Really do... *Prays and hopes* This is so nerve-wrecking... *Breaks into cold sweat* OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG....

Please pray and hope for me that things goes my way... pls... thanks...

Ranting post...

OMFG-MCH-CCB-TNS...

[WARNING : This post will contain a lot of profanities and violence and bitching about... so those who wants stuff like "peace on earth" or whatever shit, or do not wanna read angry stuff, or happy people who do not want their mood to be sunken, you are warned... leave while you can!]

I am sooooooooooo restless and panicky and desperate right now... (dun think slanting la fuckwits!) It's cos that lenglui Malay gal (I still dunno her name...) said she'd call me since Tuesday to discuss and go out shopping and stuff to find something for both of us to wear during perbarisan for the Merdeka Parade... and til now she STILL FUCKING HASN'T CALLED ME!

Fuck la... is it all leng luis will do this kinda things wan? FFK la... Broken promises la... kena dam a lot of times ady la... all from leng luis wan... (sorry to leng luis... Im not stereotyping... just fucking pissed off now... Im a perfectly sweet and nice person... when not lied, ffk-ed, broken promises, etc... to)

I will only be going to class on Monday next week to pass up my assignment... and then Friday and Saturday 5.30PM will have marching training... Saturday 2 - 4.30PM exam summore... and I dun see her in college often... so how the hell am I gonna track her down la... sigh... I hate going to complain to the lecturers about other students... I hate tattle-taling and ratting on others... but what can I do?

I am so NOT planning on wearing a cheongsam in HIGH HEELS! And WITH sports shoes to march, it would look fucking ODD la! Ppl would think Im fucking insane wei... Kebaya would be much better choice considering its longer and can cover the shoes... and where do I find kebaya I can borrow if that gal keeps playing HIDE AND SEEK with me? I will absolutely NOT go make one just for this stupid event... I still need to find a gown to borrow or buy for my Orientation Night... Dark blue... fucking dresscode... why cant they just allow us to wear whatever fucking color we want?

Not to mention, my coat and skirt for my Secretarial course will also have to be dark blue! Sigh... Nothing against it... love blue... just dun love what color we hafta wear inside... LIGHT BLUE! WTF! It's awful can!

Oh fuck... just remembered tomorrow is Salem Revelation in PD... cant go! Cos Im fucking not in KL... dam sad... have been going for all da annual raves (2x per yr, yes, I go to both)... and now, I have to break the spell cos I cant go this time... MCHTNS... sigh... I hate you people who get to go! Dam unfair CAN! Damnit la Alex! Come down and fetch me along with you la! U won't wanna be Jon n Shennie's Philips 300watt lightbulb rite? I miss clubbing with you la! Pleaaaaaaassssssse......

Oh crap...

PoEm...

Argh! Freaking migraine... killing me... Always have it... comes to "visit" every few days once or so... sometimes so bad that it even makes me puke (or want to)...

Anyhoo... I recently read a novel and stumbled upon a poem which I find really meaningful and so I decided I'll be all generous and share it with you guys... hope that you will enjoy it as much as I do and in the meantime learn something from it too...


"IF" by Rudyard Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait, and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve you turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will to say to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings - not lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If all you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that is in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!


This poem is telling you to always be yourself, have your feet firm on the ground, always be optimistic, believe in yourself... no matter what others say or think. Very very meaningful... Many people cannot do this... including myself...


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Below, is an e-mail my friend has sent to me... It is so true as well... Check out the pic... it's a couple kissing... pretty clever aye? Took me a long time form the picture in here so you guys can see it... cos the picture somehow became defected and unviewable (is there such word?) when transfered into here... It's still a bit cacat-ed la... but just as long as you can make out the picture, can? Anyways, the most important part of this post is the message below... not the how ugly the picture turned out cos of my erm, bad editing... bluekss! >_<
[hint: someone pleasssse compliment me that I did a great job with the picture... *bambi eyes*]


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Never say I Love You
If you don't really care

Never talk of feelings
If they aren't really there

Never hold my hand
If you mean to break my heart

Never say forever
If you ever plan to part

Never look into my eyes
If you are telling me a lie

Never say hello
If you think you'll say goodbye

Never say that I'm THE one
If you dream of more than me

Never lock up my heart
If you don't have the key


Anyways, hope you all enjoyed and learnt something from these two postings... Have a nice life... Will post some stuff later on!


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Oh fVcK!

Oh crap... Oh my fucking gawd... I did something crazy... something mad... something I may regret doing... even more so later... cos I already am regretting it... But if I don't do it... I will not know the answer... And whatever I wrote just now are all true... 100% pure.. from the heart... no joke... no more playing games... no more immaturity... But still... oh fuck... what have I done... Alrite... Im like contradicting myself in here... Hell, even in my brain I'm contradicting myself... conflicting myself... War is going on in my head now! ARRRRGGHHHH!!! I just hope everything turns out well... goes how Im really realllllly hoping for... But still... slim chance, I think.... sigh... Im the most pessimistic bitch around... This sucks...

Feeling patriotic, anyone?

Hmm...

Malaysia's 48th Independence Day is just around the corner (note : that's 31st of August for you fuckwits who still don't know) and I'm bummed... why? Cos this year, I won't be able to celebrate in the lovely Kuala Lumpur like I always do every other year (yes, I still fucking love that place. Love the busy and hectic life. Sure beats boringtown like where I am *rolls eyes*). No more seeing fireworks. No more hanging out in Sungai Wang area from morn til wee late hours. No more going nuts with a whole buncha friends. No more clubbing... Why is that you ask? Well, for several reasons :

1. Haze.

2. Parents would definitely NOT allow me down cos of the haze (I know it's like almost gone... but they'd definitely still say NO) ...and besides, let's not forget how they like to have their over-controlling claw into me, questioning my every move, every squirm... I get the third-degree just trying to take the car out of my home to go buy a reload card for my cell... yes, it's THAT extreme. Im not exaggerating... pfah! Funny, its only me who gets it... my sister doesn't seem to be bothered by them... sheesh! *rolls eyes*

3. I have to be patriotic (note the word HAVE in the sentence. Meaning Im forced to be... beyond my will.) Olympia College, Kuantan suddenly decides to make their presence known to everyone so they are doing that by joining the Merdeka Parade... which means we poor reluctant students will have to join the march... bleugggh! >_<

And it gets worse... We have two lovely ladies wearing some traditional clothings (ie. Kebaya, cheongsam, kurung, sari, etc... u get the picture) walking up front, holding a banner, saying something like "KERANAMU MALAYSIA... OLYMPIA COLLEGE" and behind us is our head student, Zaki and behind would be 3 guys holding, Im guessing, the Malaysia flag, the Pahang flag and possibly one with the college logo. Following behind is seven rows and x amount of columns of people in the march... well, that's not why I said it gets worse...

Here goes...

I'm one of the "lovely ladies" who gets to be up front... wearing... gulp, a cheongsam? Kebaya?! That's for being well-known and instantly liked by (almost) all the lecturers and staff in college... *runs around the room 100x, screaming my head off*

*Pant pant Exhausted* Ok... I've calmed down... Hmm... we haven't decided on what I'd be wearing though... the pretty (yea, she's a real beauty) Malay girl that would be walking along side me with the banner in our hands would be calling me to discuss what I'd wear. Maybe we'd be going for a shopping spree tomorrow to decide *whee!*
Or maybe I should just borrow my mum's never-worn-before cheongsam... it's kinda loose for me... but hmm... will ask the gal when she calls...

I'll try and take some pics of the event... and me in whatever I wear... and post it in here for you guys to see if I can... Hope I dun trip and fall... Oh gosh...

@_@

Ooh... Hmm... Orientation Night
Venue : MS Garden, Kuantan
Date : 17th September 2005.
Time : Still unknown.
Charge : RM50 (around that).
Attire : Dark blue gown <---anyone got any classy, sexy and beautiful gowns to loan me? I'd be forever grateful... pleeeeeeaaaaaaaaaase *winks*

Haze.Haze.Haze.

Wah lao...

The haze is getting worse and worse. It's even spread over to the east coast! Kuantan, Terengganu... kena ady! This morning I woke up and looked out the window and OMFG, blur man! For a minute there I thought I was in Genting Highlands... except it was damn fucking HOT!

Everywhere I looked, it was damn blurry vision! Went grocery shopping with my mum in the afternoon and kept yawning. Lacking oxygen due to haze... Stupid mch ccb Indons! What the fuck you affect our country like that! Inconsiderate I tell you!

I told my mum: At the rate of the haze now, spreading even to east coast already now, sooner or later, people are gonna look at the map and wonder why we cant see Malaysia on it; cos it's such a small country and the (fucking) haze is so thick!

I actually meant it as a joke, but...

Check out the picture and see for urself what Im talking about...



NOTE : Click on photo to enlarge...

This is fucking serious case... Soon we'd be going, "Where's Malaysia?"

Hail storm has struck Subang and Sunway area couple of days ago and its snowing in the impossible-to-snow Melbourne... wonder if it'll even snow in zon Khatulistiwa ie. MALAYSIA!

Hey, the impossible might just happen!

Song for the broken hearted...

This song was sent to me by my cousin, Eric, after knowing what happened with me and my baby boy... He said to listen to the lyrics carefully and after doing that... I feel like it is so much like what I should and must do... I cried reading it... F.I.R. - 把愛放開 當你開始追尋你要的自由 放開我們緊握的手 帶走我的愛和天空 我不知所措 我以為我會懂 我們的愛 我們的愛 當我獨自走到時間的盡頭 回憶和我擦身而過 帶走你的愛和笑容 我無力承受 最後的一點心痛 我們的愛 我們的愛 把愛放開 把手放開 如果你的心已不在 把愛放開 不再等待 你的溫柔是一片空白把愛放開 把心打開 這次我決定走出回憶重來 就讓我徹底地傷 再徹底地醒過來 終於明白愛已不再 從今以後再也沒有什麼能去依賴 我還有什麼期待 把愛放開 把手放開 如果你的心已不在 把愛放開 不再等待 你的溫柔是一片空白把愛放開 把心打開 這次我決定走出回憶重來 就讓我徹底地傷 再徹底地醒過來

I cannot accept the fact yet... It's all too soon and drastic... Im so stoned... I'll be falling back to my old self again... Suicidal thoughts flashing back into my mind... Depression strikes again... I need as much love as possible... Im so alone... so so alone... failed... faltered again...

Why does this always happen to me... Just when I think I can trust and love someone again... I get shitfuck back... Love hurts... I dun even know how many "markings" I already made on myself cos of this... I dun wanna hurt no more... What best way than to leave the world... That's the most tempting offer I heard...

Thanks everyone...

Sorry for late posting... Been having computer classes... Quite boring but nice at the same time... boring as in... alaa... classes memang boring wan la... but nice as in I got pretty nice new friends and everyone's friends with everyone over here cos it's like dam 9 small college okay? LOL... Not to mention, in classes we get to go online and do our own stuff! Da teacher's pretty cool... she lets us do our own thing as long as we do what she asks us to as well (which we do, of course! =P) We're good students! hahahahaah...

Anyways, this specific posting is to thank everyone who has been so supportive and helpful and concerned over me in the past few days that I haven't been feeling well, having depression and suicidal thoughts over some major problem I have been facing... My thank yous goes out to:

Audrey *** Thanks for always being there for me... Im glad to have known you 3 years ago, cos you are the nicest and greatest friend anyone can ever have... I consider you my soulmate cos we are soooo similar in character and thinking and lots more... This friendship is the best one I ever had... No matter where we are or how far apart we are, we'll always always be there for one another... THANK YOU for giving me a call all the way from Australia just to hear me out as well as give suggestions and advice to me... Remember that I'll be there for you just the way you are to me! *hugz & muaks*

Gavin @ Giin Ann *** Though we don't know each other for very long or well, but you have still been there to accompany me and give me good advice on what I should and shouldn't do in my time of need. I can sense the blooming of a wonderful friendship. Anytime you need me, I'll always always be there for you too! *hugZ*

Suk Ching *** You have been nothing but a true friend to me throughout the 4 years we've known each other... sharing our experiences and you helping me through my difficult times and much more. You are the nicest person anyone can ever know... I never regretted knowing you and being your friend. Thanks for always being the greatest friend ever... Keep in touch always and forever cos I don't hope for this friendship ever to end. *hugggg*

Frank *** You're such a good person... I feel you've grown more mature after knowing you for all this time... You've been nothing but nice to me. You came to my aid and lent me an ear even though you're piled up over your head with law cases and workload... This makes me not regretting keeping the friendship and ever confiding in you. Though that cannot happen for us, but the friendship is the best thing that I can ever ask for. Just remember that I'll be there for you no matter what. Thank you... *huggies*

Last but definitely not least,

Irene *** You are the greatest greatest friend ever... You never cease to amaze me with your quickwit and straighforwardness. Nothing about you is ever fake and that's what I appreciate about you the most. You took me as your friend and this I am most honored. I am so blessed to have known you and to share my life with you. And thank you so so much for calling me to see how I am all the way from Singapore even though you are facing some serious problems yourself. This goes to show how cared for I am by you. Hope that one day we can finally meet up cos I really hope to see you... Love ya girl... *hugs + kisses*

These are the people whom I can relate to and not regret knowing... You guys are the greatest! I love you guys so so much! *I dunno how many of you are actually gonna see your thanks here... but I really hope all of you do... And if you don't, well, I mean it from the bottom of my heart!*

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